Everything is kind of getting boring. It's the same over and over. Nothing is really happening. I don't know if I'm really happy right now. Merely existing. So earlier I was in my room, the heater was on and everything, and so I just laid down and tried to sleep but it didn't happen. I mostly just was there thinking. But I liked how it was. It was warm, kinda tired, and kind of like a... teddy bear? Loving? and stuff? I liked it.
This was also after Megan read this tag thing on Facebook, apparently got to part where I ranted about a few certain people should die, read about Cotey, and decided to text me. About it. I really have no idea what she was trying to do. I think she was just defending him. She annoyed me a lot. It's not my fault her boyfriend is an ass. She should know he is. He's blunt and says what's on his mind, and if he found out, he'd kick your ass and then some. One thing she said with some major grammatical corrections. They both piss me off...
I would like to be more like Michael or Lars. (guess what. Firefox says bemore is a word. what a weird word.) They're cool cats. Like Sly. he was also a cool cat. and Azzy is an actual cat. and is cuddly. She's a cuddly cat. But she doesn't use the litter box well. So she failed at being a good cat. This is so pointless. I should become a hermit. Fuck you people. Wanting your approval is hard.

When you leave, my colours fade to gray.

Rihanna's forehead is pretty large. *sigh* Man... I stopped Please Don't stop The Music, and Iw as going to listen to Bennie K. But guess what? Apparently the music for A Love Story isn't up anymore. Now I have to listen to a live version. You know what I don't like? Listening to a live version of something. If I wanted live, I'd go to the concert. Which I'm not opposed to, but I'd rather be there at the concert to see live songs, instead of looking for them on Youtube because I want to listen to a master recording of the song with a video. SEAMO seems pretty cool. The caps lock though is odd. and he just dashed off stage... But I guess they had to go through the rest of their set and didn't need him...
I'd like music as hardcore as Chop Suey, but more(if not all) depressing parts.

So I went to the movies with Sarah tonight! Yeah! An actual date! My first one ever. Pretty sure her's too. I was super excited. We watched Inkheart which was alright. I can't really complain about it. And Stanwood sucks for having your arm around someone's shoulder. Fucking arm rest... Anyway... After the movie we just hung out in the arcade at that table for a while. NOT talking very much or anything... So then I jammed my fingers in a hole in the middle of the table and scratched my pinky. That wasn't a very exciting time... Kind of awkward... Then my mom showed up and took her home and then we went home. I entertained myself through that. It was cool though. I'd do it again. I like time with her... Even if there's nothing happening...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bIEOZCcaXzE That'd be so cool if you could figure out what video is played at the beginning of this video. and give me a link.

I should not be up right now. I am tired. I should be in bed.

I don't want to see, see us apart, I just want to tell you straight from my heart. I miss you.

So I have started to try to get into some daily routine in order to be more efficient. And anything getting done is efficient compared to the usual. So I get home, get on the computer or eat some cocoa pebbles. Then I'll feed the horses, go to the bathroom, then practice guitar. This should put me around 5, when I need to feed the dogs so Sasha doesn't wake mom up at 1 in the morning to go out. Then I guess the rest of the day is what I usually do... Which at least most of you should know.
This does not come without a story, though. Today, I had to feed the dogs before playing guitar, and then didn't even do that very rigorously. I ended up just laying down in front of the door/heater and sort of half passing out for an hour. Like the time where you're sort of getting up and some things might be real, and some things might not be real. and it's sort of confusing. But nothing you think is real, is real. At one point I wanted to tell the bus driver to turn the heat off. Then I realized I'm not on the bus. That was the heater in my room that was so warm. At one point Hannah started texting me. I told her I was hanging out on my floor. and she asked if it was warm. She knew what was going on. It was all good. Then at one point I was on my back holding my phone where I could see it above me, and it just sort of fell. I refuse to believe I dropped it, so it just fell on my face. That's when I decided I needed to get up.

Sarah is not on IM. This is disappointing. You even wrote it on your hand, Sarah.

"Blogging: Never before have so many people with so little to say said so much to so few." Yep that about sums this up. *listens to techno*

But I thought, this wouldn't hurt a lot I guess not

*pelvic thrust*
I just taught Stephanie how to delete her history... Which isn't even hard... But now she can watch all the porn she wants?
>.>
'kay....

So someone put a plate in the dishwasher sideways. This pisses me off because the plate then gets caught on the spinny arm deal that sprays out water and the tube that the water goes through and it's annoying pulling the thing out and then the top shelf rolls out too... or it's already out and then bottom one just stops. Along with this comes the horrid noise of the plates and other dishes banging together. Which is annoying even without a hangover. So I forced it out without bothering to lift it up because I was tired of it, and so broke the dishwasher.

*attention whore* Give me attention, bitches!

Today I met the guy that Boo's been fucking. I thought she said he was black. Must be some other kid. Well I tried to run away, but I didn't want to like... actually run... so she grabbed my bag and made me stay. He didn't seem so bad... He also didn't seem like he'd have sex with her... >.> it was odd... Um...

You know what's weird? Wearing a retainer(which I blame) at night, and then drooling all over the pillow and my face. I have no idea how it happens. I stopped sleeping with my mouth open a long time ago because of it, and now I can't even avoid it unless I'm on my back that's what she said. and I don't have any tissue paper or anything just layin around my bed so I can't really wipe it off with that. and I don't wear a shirt at night, so I can't wipe my face and/or pillow off on that, so then I just have a somewhat dirty(I think) pile of a few clothes next to my bed and just use that shirt. It's really annoying rolling over and finding your face to be freezing. and then that your face is also wet now. So. Gross. I think I even go "Eaugh groooosssssss." Especially when it's actually gone down my face and just, consumed everything. I can't think of a way to make this sound worse.

Back acne. Also sucks.
Acne in general sucks.

I will never be afraid, I will keep on fighting 'til the end, I can walk on water I can fly, I will keep on fighting 'til I die.
Good song.
Raves sound like fun. 'cept the drugs, of course. Though they sound super fun... Still... Wouldn't happen.

Bro rape.

From a bulletin I just saw...